on the surface
apathy
underneath
pain
feeling it in my shoulders
the anger, frustration,
rage
with so much commitment
to justice
how do I stand
in the shadows
and let them be hurt?
what is it really like to
stand up to the lions of injustice?
and furthermore, why do I feel like
my father is one of those lions?
why is he a threat
that I must protect myself from?
It is not about protecting myself
anymore. I have to protect another
innocent
human being
whose innocence and joy
(qualities that should be present in every teenager's life)
are being stolen,
ripped from his hands
by the selfishness (brute selfishness!)
of one person
blind to the feelings of others
Is this not the profile of an abuser?
the cycle of power
a bulldozer
hurting everything in its path
destroying
attachment
attachment!
does he realize that he
cannot possibly walk into a
child's life for two years,
support them, build a relationship with them,
however problematic,
and walk out in order to protect himself?
Life is not all about you
You have never truly had someone walk out on you
You just walk out to protect yourself.
